The sigmoidoscope and me...

So as most of you will know, 2 weeks ago I conquered another procedure. The deadly sigmoidoscopy....*

*I must disclose I go into quite a bit of detail, some may seem TMI (although I try not to) but it is a very "intimate" procedure and requires specific TMI words...

What is a sigmoidoscopy?
A {flexible} sigmoidoscopy is a procedure that is used to look inside the rectum (back passage) and lower part of your large bowel. The camera (sigmoidoscope) is a small, narrow, flexible camera that is inserted inside.

A sigmoidoscopy is often used to identify; haemorrhoids (piles) on the inside, polyps, ulcers, tumours and inflammatory bowel diseases such as Colitis. If a polyp or something is found, they may take a biopsy. If haemorrhoids are found they will do rubber band ligation. This involves suffocating the haemorrhoids, and they will fall out naturally.

Well, how did mine go? Well, let me tell you, I definitely do not want another one.

Isn't it weird how everything terrible happens to me? At least I try to be optimistic, well I try to with a lot of things, but hospital procedures never seem to go right for me.

First off, I went to Elective Care, the same place were I had my laparoscopy done. I'd say I waited max 20 minutes and was immediately called in to get changed into a gown and the weird shorts. Not even half dressed and they were ready for me. The nurses were all lovely, there were about 5/6 on the team and then the endoscopist. She talked me through the procedure, confirmed everything I told the nurses before I went in, and gave me my oxygen to begin with. Everything was fine up until that bit. I guess I wasn't scared as I had the laparascopy 2 months before, so I thought this would be a piece of cake..

No chance. I was told I'd be given an anaesthetic to relax me, and I could choose between gas&air or a relaxing agent. I chose the relaxing agent of course, as it came with oxygen and it seemed like the right one at the time. Once given the anaesthetic, I'd say my vision was blurry..ish, well I wear glasses full time so of course taking them off, it was blurry but alot more blurry than usual. I felt fine...exactly as I did when I came in...Strange right? So a few minutes later I feel weird, like I can seriously feel this camera inside me (TMI), and it was seriously uncomfortable. The endoscopist asked the nurse next to me if I was "out of it" (like sleepy as I should of been), the nurse replied "No". I was 100% aware of where I was, and extremely emotional at that. I said it didn't matter and for them to continue anyway. Then she hit something and that made me extremely tense, and panic (Just FYI; if you ever need a camera done up the rectum, dont flex or tense.)

So the endoscopist exited as she could tell I really wanted to stop, the pain was unbearable and I could feel my chest getting tighter. She exited and asked if I felt I couldnt breathe. I felt personally okay just my chest was hurting. She said this is normal for an asthmatic. So I was wheeled off to the little discharge room, and laid in bed feeling to be honest, fine. Sore, but I felt like I just walked into a room, had a camera put up somewhere and was told to leave after a few seconds. Then weirdly as soon as I was wheeled into the room, I felt funny, like extremely relaxed. Apparently the relaxing agent I was given, can take a while to kick in (It would be me wouldn't it?) 

So after a bout half an hour, I felt okay, I could walk, get dressed so they sent me to the waiting room to wait for my mum. I had a cup of tea and some biscuits and then finally went home.

I ate and ate and ate (You have to fast for 24 hours before...) and felt fine. Had a massive headache, chest still hurt and very emotional, but whats different?

The next day was a nightmare. Woke up, feeling really lightheaded...I put it off as "Oh well I was injected with an anaesthetic" It'll wear off tomorrow. But no this was weird. Everytime I stood up, I fell straight back down, my chest got a lot tighter through the day, and my head was killing. I felt like I was going to be sick. Next minute, there it was. the food I so enjoyed in my mouth again (TMI). I immediately panicked, not helping my already tight chest and started panicking. It also didn't help the vomit tasted like metal, highlighting blood in the vomit. Hello asthma attack! I rang 111, and was told I'd need to go to A&E. My mum rushed home and we headed there.

After a while of messing about telling me I should just go to a walk in centre, saying I need to be seen to quicker but they were understaffed (Typical NHS), they decided to keep me and see me. After blood tests, wee samples, xrays. They figured I had an allergic reaction the sedative given to me, and were worried that this sedative harmed my lungs (Meaning they were scared of a law suit(: ) After loads of hours I was sent back home, and went straight to bed.

What about now?
Well 2 weeks later and I still feel exactly the same as I did that second day. Headaches, Dizziness, Nausea. But I have nausea constantly anyway but I never really got headaches or dizziness. It even hurts to stare at this computer screen right now but I had to get this written (hello 20% brightness). I went to my GP and he reckons I had an oncoming sinus infection anyway, and a water infection and the sedative just brought out the symptoms anymore. Have been given extremely high doses of codeine, paracetamol and anti-sickness meds (basically stuff that will knock me out.) and antibiotics, but nothings changed, everything is short term as usual.

So here are some tips for those, who may be getting a camera in the future:

1. Be prepared - Take a dressing gown, a magazine and a fizzy drink with you in a bag. Your bag stays with you the whole time and the nurses take it with you to the discharge room. I felt so thirsty and lacked energy after the procedure, I asked my boyfriend to bring me sprite when he picked me up with my mum. It helped! 

2. Ask about anaesthetic - Before you go into the procedure, you go into a room with a nurse to discuss you know whats happening, allergies, conditions etc. Ask what anaesthetic they'll be using. I found out afterwards they could of used another type of relaxing agent which is both pain relief and sedative. 

3. Signs - Be aware of the signs of a problem after the procedure. If within 24 hours you feel; lightheaded, extremely nauseated or vomit, sore joints, large amounts of blood in stools or back passage. These are warning signs to get help.

4. Relax - You SHOULD feel fine after 24/48 hours, and they say go back to work after then. But after the procedure, go to bed, put pyjamas on, eat something nice and relax. It can be very stressful and or painful.

I know this seemed extremely morbid and terrifying, but this was my personal experience and had to write about it, as I said I would. Having an allergic reaction after a procedure is a very rare thing, so don't be worried about that! 

If you have any questions, you are welcome to email me at or at my social media, which is linked below!

I also did a "live" update on my facebook page of the trip to A&E (live as in I was writing as everything was happened) so go read that if you wish!

- Amylou

Dear Future Self...

Most bloggers, specifically those who are chronically ill, write to their past self. One example was Emilia Clarke (plays Deanerys in Game of Thrones) wrote a letter to her 18 year old self, explaining relationships, dreams and other things she learnt as she grown up. Bur what about writing to our older self? Wouldn't you want to at least hope for better in the future?

Today my blog post is going to be a letter to myself. Now I guess I better choose an age to write to? I'm going to choose the age...25. Now this is only 6 years away, but 25 years old was quite significant to me, as I had this superstition when I was younger that this was when I was going to die (Weird isn't it? I had a strange childhood.)

Lets begin...

Dear Amy-Lou,

Hopefully now you're 25, you've reached a point in life were you know where your life is going, and I hope you've achieved a goal, one of many I'm sure as you've always been quite indecisive on what you aspire to be, whether it was a politician, a teacher or race car driver (I'm sure 5 year old Amy is now buzzing inside of you, she would be so happy if you truly became a race car driver.) 

What's it like in the year 2022? Nothing changed I'm guessing? I bet Impractical Jokers is still on, gosh I love that show. How cute is Sal? And bet you're sitting on the couch, laptop on your knee, in your own home watching Friends on Comedy Central. Typical day huh? I hope you read this on a Saturday and you're working young woman! Gosh I sound like Dad right? Sadly you were more like him than you think when you were younger, but I bet you still have that nasty temper and irish wit. It it was it is, so it?;)

Did you go back to college? Remember we dropped out? Dad always thrown apprenticeships and jobs at you, but remember it was always a dream to get A-Levels. Maybe Uni wasn't in the question (or maybe it was, well done!) but you always wanted to be proud of yourself, and no matter what I'm sure I'm reading this smiling know I've come far and got to where I wanted to be by 25. Remember being 13 and thinking "Oh wow I'm going to die at 25". I cant remember why we thought that, we always had an irrational fear of things including failure, but remember where ever we end up, we tried our hardest.

Expectantly you're in a committed relationship? I hope it's with Daniel, because I cant see you's breaking up, but hey this is 6 years down the road now, and everyone is bound to go through heartbreak, but I have it in my heart that you now have a ring on your finger off him, or even already married. If not; Hello to the new guy! You best had be treating me right! Does he understand you? Please tell me he helps you with your illnesses? Get him to read my other post on invisible illnesses, Daniel read it, and he completely understood remember.

Sadly I wish to discuss this, and I hope this doesn't make you cry but children. Did you get new fertility tests? Are you sure you're infertile? Please tell me you've already had your first child? I hope little Peter or Frankie is running round the living room, playing with their little toy Simba, and watching Disney films like Aristocats like you used to love watching when you were a child. If there isn't a child, I swear to god you best had  be trying, although I'll be proud of you whether you adopt or just don't have children. You'll always have Joseph, Izabella, Ollie and the new baba (to be announced 2016), although they'll all be near their teenage years by then.

Do you have a full diagnosis of your problems? I'm guessing Mum still calls you a hypochondriac, (of course remember it's our own little joke). If anyone else calls you it, punch them! (Please don't violence is not the answer), but only Mum can call you it. Hopefully the doctors have finally done more tests, maybe another operation because these pains at the minute are excruciating! Seriously though, you best not have given up, never let these illnesses defeat you and never let anyone tell you otherwise, although you're now an adult, you've had these pains for what now? Over...14 years? Now is not the time to be defeated!! 

So I guess my work is done..right? Hoping that you read this and fulfilled everything I set out to do. Maybe show the kids? Show them that even at 18, you were thinking of the future. Tomorrow is a new day, and a new step to where you want to be. If  by 25 you still have a long way to go, maybe write a letter to your 35 year old self? It might help a little.


♡ 18 year old, Amy-Lou 

♕ Quotes of The Week ♕

 7th June - 12th June 2016. 

So I've never done a post like this before, but with everyone I know having exam week and I have the hospital on Thursday, I thought some quote encouragement would be good!

Quote 1:

Believe in Yourself! The only person who can truly develop you is yourself. If you constantly think negatively, are you actually moving ahead? No! You're simply moving backwards. Start off with a little faith in yourself, For example; I believe every morning I will get up, and out of bed, and sit downstairs. This can be extremely hard, but I believe that I am better than just staying in bed all day! Start off small, then one day you may truly believe in yourself and gain the confidence you always needed.

Quote 2:

This quote really speaks to me. I believe if you want to go do something or have a aspiration, you simply have to strive for it! This relates to what I said in the last one about being negative. "It is easier said than done" of course things are, but how will you know without trying!

Quote 3:

Remember, to be successful, you have to make a few mistakes along the way. As they say "Rome was not built in a day". Don't rush into things! Don't expect what you want to come to you straight away. Build on yourself, carry your weight to your next goal, and just because you may make a mistake on the way, does not mean you are a failure. It simply means you are human. So don't worry you'll make it!

Quote 4:

This goes out to any students, or chronically ill people like myself. Are you sitting exams right now? Or undergoing treatment that is terrifying? Well the quote basically speaks for it's self. Finishing that exam, is one step closer to University, which means another life cycle closer to your dream job! And that treatment? Yeah I know, it truly feels like hell, but what if this takes the pain away? Or helps you understand your illnesses? One day it might lead to a cure? Always have faith in what you're doing right now. And hey; if it fails? Tomorrow is always a new day.

Thanks for reading! I hope you enjoyed this post! My next post will be on my hospital appointment/procedure on Thursday which I am preparing for right now! (Yikes! Bowel Prep!) So, if you enjoy my blog, please save it somewhere! Or keep up to date with the links below!

- Amylou.